2018. What a Loser I’ve Been

Time moves fast when we are busy having fun.

I can’t believe my last post was in April 2016. In fact, I remembered this blog when I got a notification that my domain name is expiring in 21 days. I’ve been pondering whether I should let the domain name expire or if I should keep it and try a second round of blogging and perhaps get my million dollars once and for all.

I would want to scream that “I’ve decided!” but that would be a false report. In fact, I’m writing this post when I’m a little bit tipsy on Strawberry Vodka. Anyone of you ever gets the inspiration to write when you are high? I know you can relate.

Back to the post at hand.

My life has been a rollercoaster, ups and downs, of a young man trying to make money. I have to admit I’m not feeling young anymore. I’ll be 32 this year and I really can’t say I have achieved anything significant.

I have a young family; my first born turned 2 two days ago and I’ll be welcoming the second born in the family on 27th May. So, blessings I’ve had.

But in terms of success, or at least how I view it, there is really nothing much to show. I mean, when I was a kid, I thought I’ll be balling by my 27th year. Fast cars, nice clothes and nice women. Hitting up casinos every night, parties till the dawn, signing checks on the hallways, etc.

But the reality of life dawned on me. And it hit me hard I can taste the blood in my spit.

My God, Where Was I Hiding?

Slowly but surely, I’ve seen my dreams slowly fading to just that; dreams.

When I was young, I was ambitious. I wanted to accomplish so much. Here is a glimpse of how I envisioned my life:

i) Be the Pope. The first black Pope.

ii) Be a pilot.

iii) Be a school headmaster

Honestly, these were my three career aspirations. When I matured a little bit, I wanted to be a pilot. I even took Aviation course in high school. Woe unto me. Nowadays, I see some of my classmates that took Aviation course with me flying in Florida. They living my life.

And what did life deal me? An online writer.

Pathetic. A $3 per 500 words online writer from a 3rd world country.

I’m at a point in my life where I don’t know what to do. I spend long nights playing NFS Most Wanted and AirStrike 3D. Till 4am, that’s when I go to sleep.

I hate my life. All my friends are (or seem) successful. Classmates are doing great, have big cars and nice houses. Acquaintances are making mad moolah from what I can see on their Facebook feeds.

And look at me; a dreamer but never an achiever. Always waiting for that one day when he’ll strike it big. Like that Philippines guy who got rewarded way after he died.

And this mumble gets us here.

Where You’d Been?

I’ve been around. Just around, watching the world spin on its axis. As I pen this post, my current net worth is just about $2100. God forbid should a serious financial emergency happen.

So, I’ve been thinking maybe it’s time I got serious about life and see whether I can really make $1m before my 40th birthday. I have about 8 years to go.

So, you may be thinking, “8 years is a lot”. But remember how life happens. Shit happens and I lose track. Get demotivated and stuff. It’s easy to lose focus when everyone around you seems to be progressing except you.

Here’s a current nutshell of my life, money wise:

i) I have not formal employment. I work as a freelance writer for the Hoth and Zerys. My freelance writing work brings about $300 a month.

ii) I have a couple of Amazon affiliate sites. The two sites that are bringing 99 percent of my income average at a combined total of about $500 a month.

iii) My total monthly expenses round up to about $500 a month.

I will be updating this blog with the progress of my sites as well as my income. I hope by doing so, I’ll keep myself motivated (and probably whoever will ever come to read this blog later).

The goal is to make $1m in 8 years. The journey has begun.


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